As I have now been in India for 3 weeks, I reflected this morning as I did 6 fst wlking laps of the golden sands ont he beach where I am lodging – on just how much I am loved. Everyone here at Bogmola Beach seem to just ‘look out’ for me. It’s incredible nd because I have chosen to be more anonymous and not mix with other holiday makers, I can observe more. And receive more without being centre stage that I have been known to occupy on many occasions!
It’s fascinating. I just feel wrapped in this stuff I used to run awy from. I have added geatly to the book I mentioned in the last post and I know that very personal parts of me are beginning to be not only exposed, but healed, also.
I have given some Soul Sex talks and workshops in the UK and America earlier in the year and will continue with them as part of my portfolio career. I hadn’t realised that I was also going to be giving similar talks here in Goa. And the feedback I am getting is quietly encouraging – I could tell you about the healings and the transformations on that side and take all day. However, I won’t – you will have to read it in the book.
The internet here is still soooooo slow and sometimes I feel exhausted because (say) one hours of computing might take me about 4 1/2 hours with the power cuts, lack of speed, lack of contacts immediatley to hand etc.
I reminded myself of something fascinating the other day. I was on Chemo about 6 years ago following the breast cancer. When I went to the Maldives, I was the only one not bitten. Now again, where the holiday makers are scratching and putting stuff on for the mozzies, I don’t get looked at (thank you C). Also, I have a lizzard who resides in my rooms so he eats the night time creatures, I guess.
The landlady has begun to provide me with flowers and plants as she knows this is of interest to me and blessings again.
I visited the school lessons today. First of all pre-school children – about 30 of them, all sitting quietly learning. Hardly any fidgetting and in their uniforms that always seem quite respectively clean. Then into Judith’s class of 5-6 year olds, again in uniforms of yellow and white.
I’m keeping in touch with some of you by phone and or telepathy and it is great to know that I am in your thoughts. There’s so much to say. The noise, vibrancy and sheer numbers of people in the towns and cities is incredible. Even when I go to the beach under the bright moon, so it’s not so dark, there are lots of Indian people around.
I’ve actually now settled in to a place where I can get some real silent times if I want them. I have regained some of my meditative practices and mostly breathing practices – especially the little death taught to me by Robert Hawk. It really saves my day, sometimes and helps me not to go into myself. After all, India has worked the way it has for thousands of years and it’s for me to observe and take time to heal those judgements of how I might know better.
I’m being drawn on so many fronts to the Sharmanic healings that I used to practice about 20 years ago and then again quite recently, before I left the UK. It ties in nicely with a book that I bought on recommendation by Brenda and Fiona (hello dear soul sister) – The Mutant Messenger. What a wow. I actually know what is been written about is, for me, so true.
The other evening was (yet another) Hindu ceremony at the sea shore with families, candles, chants, incence and prayers. I just wanted to be in there – to be amongst some of these fmilies. So what did I do? I got close. I felt my heart whell up so full and the compassion of the unfamiliar words and the feelings that were coming up and up and up. I stayed in that place of absolute love and knowingness that all was as it should be…. for so many hours. I could hardly pull myself away from the beach, I was part of all those families who were celebrating the light
Last weekend I went away for 3 days which was fun. Alex showed me round and introduced me to seeing a different part of Goa that was more commercial and yet so wonderfully colourful with it’s shops, market stalls, incence and singing. A slow boat round the lake and being serenaded quietly; some kingfishers darting in and out of site. Great. And my companion, the one with the magnificent body, was a stir on the beach. I have to laugh. He really is such a loving soul and loves the attention – he has a quick mind – always busy in that direction and yet is the most kind person that I know. It’s is a fabulous combination and such good fun.
Well, I’ll be going to Manipur about 11th December and visiting Mumbai for 2 days – think I will do the same on return as I have heard it is a fascinating City so why not? Mind you, as Manipur is still a restricted area, it has not yet been confimed that my Certificate of Entrance has been approved. It will be cold there so good job I have the long johns to go with
Until I hear from you all …. limited respsonses so far, so I am not sure if anyone other than Debbie and Carl are watching my progress … Love Jackie x